Are these emotions my own? Or are the ailments of the outside world causing me to feel this way? 

I've been feeling a bit down recently; perhaps the first glimpse of depression since top surgery. There are so many factors influencing our lives that I've always found it difficult to pinpoint a single source of my suffering. Is it stress and anxiety related to work? Lack of self-care? The fact I feel my trans and nonbinary experience is rarely seen, heard, or accounted for in broader society? Internalized transphobia? Or maybe it's the media frenzy of anti-trans* bills that are bringing a heightened awareness to the ways transphobia is pervasive and deeply entrenched in our society. We have so far to come. I wonder if anyone else is feeling this way...