sometimes risk is the price of progress

I remember a time when risk and fear felt like immovable objects preventing me from making progress in my gender journey. The thought of starting testosterone and getting top surgery was much scarier for me than the actual injections and procedure. Why did I associate these steps with risking my relationships? Why did I fear I would suddenly lose the feminine parts of myself that do feel authentic to me? The progress I was seeking simply required me to take a risk and find comfort in the unknown. Though I still don't have all the answers, I am certain that taking this risk led me to love myself and others in a brand new way.