forgive the past // don't forget it 

some days it feels as if I've lived numerous lives. Seeing people who knew me before I began aligning my body and gender identity reminds me how different things really are. 

at times there is a tendency to distance myself from these reminders of the past, but then I remember how each person in my life (consciously or unconsciously) helped lead me to where I am today. Today, I have a much deeper and authentic understanding of self. I look back on friendships/relationships and am able to make much more sense of why I was or was not able to feel my whole self in them. 

while I forgive others and myself for the challenges this caused, I do not forget the way each of these experiences continue to inform my #nonbinary narrative. 

Mere Abrams