once you can name it, you can begin to move through it

for as long as I can remember, I felt like something was wrong. As a child I called this feeling a stomachache. As a young teen, I remember feeling constantly nauseous, so much so that oftentimes I would throw up. After seeing a number of doctors who ruled out medical conditions, I was told I had anxiety and panic attacks. No one ever brought up the topic of gender or gender dysphoria. I later learned that "wrong" feeling was related to being seen as solely female. After learning about gender identity and what it means to be transgender as a young adult, I had a gut feeling I was onto something. I became super interested in the topic and couldn’t pull myself away from researching. Throughout this process, I finally found the words to describe what had been going on for me for so long. It wasn’t until I was able to name it, that I was able to begin working through it. 

Mere Abrams