questioning, contemplation and action are all parts of self-love

being patient with yourself isn’t always easy— and it’s okay to change your mind. questioning, contemplation and action are all parts of self-love

for me, 2016 was a year of lessons, losses, and new endeavors. I landed my dream job(s), lost loved ones, created memories with friends/family, and got to know parts of myself I never knew were there. About a month ago I (with the support of my doctor) decided to increase my dose of testosterone to .5ccs per week. I am definitely noticing accelerated changes on this new dose. My voice is lower, more facial hair is popping up, the existing stubble I have grows more quickly, and I can see my body shape becoming less curvy each week. I also have more acne and mood swings. I’m not ashamed to say I was becoming impatient. •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
my decision to remain on a low dose for the first two years of my medical alignment was really about seeing how each change brought on by #testosterone would feel while trying to protect my fertility. The desires I had going in are not necessarily the same desires I have now. It’s actually becoming difficult for me to connect with the mental state I was in when I started testosterone. I think I was in so much pain, I kind of blocked certain things out. I just knew, with all my heart and soul, that I needed to start this process— I didn't really have an ideal physical body I was striving towards. But as male puberty continues to take its course, I am consistently surprised by how natural and exciting each physical change feels. It's hard to accurately describe the positive feelings of self-love I've been able to foster since starting T. The way I experience self-love is completely different. Before, it was all about others enjoying and approving of my body. Now, I’m learning what it feels like to love me too.

Mere Abrams